As my wedding gets closer and closer, I can’t help but reflect upon the last ten years of my dating life. My crazy, chaotic, ridiculous, humorous dating life. Until I met Larry a year ago, I had my share of Mr. Wrongs, Mr. Right-Nows, Mr. What-the-Heck-Was-I-Thinking, and Mr. Why-Is-He-Wearing-That? Yes, I had more first dates than fifth dates than I care to admit, but it got me to where I am today…..with the man I prayed for that was hand-delivered by God to make me happy for the rest of my life. I never dreamed it would take me ten years to get married again. I really thought I would find someone within 5 years or so and live happily ever after. What I didn’t count on was growing older and wiser. I didn’t count on actually learning from my mistakes. What a novel idea! With every bad date I actually learned something more about myself. I was a sponge taking in every detail about every man who I was letting down easy or who was breaking my heart. I could never really tell anyone what I was looking for in a partner, but I could for sure tell them what I WASN’T looking for. My friends would tell me I was being too picky at times, and I did go through a phase where I was turning down second dates because I didn’t like the way someone chewed their food or maybe their laugh was weird. I think that was more about me than about them. I had lulls in my dating life when I just needed me-time so I think I was harder on the guys that tried to date me so I wouldn’t get into a relationship. I don’t know….looking back on it now it is so easy to analyze things and figure myself out. I wish I knew what the heck I was doing at the time! Three or four bad internet dates which are better told in person, a few blind dates that were just ok, a couple pretty cool boyfriends that turned out to be Douche-Bag extraordinaires after a few months, and then my sweet, sweet Larry. Through it all, my friends were so patient with me and were my biggest cheerleaders. Always supporting me when I was excited about a new guy even if they weren’t so sure about him at first…then they would be right there to pick up the pieces when it all fell apart. They never (well maybe sometimes) said “I told you so” and they always had the best names to call the dirtiest of the dirt bags. I couldn’t have made it through my dating years without my girlfriends. One of the many things I love about Larry is that he gets that I have this special bond with my friends and he never tries to interfere with that…I think mostly because they are on his side right now and he NEVER wants that to change. :)
On this Insane Search for Sanity, my me-time today was spent trying to remember all the things I am going to miss about my dating life. With 30 days left until I tie the knot, I thought I would recall some fond memories. After reading through old journals and really, just remembering some dating disasters….I say SO LONG SINGLE LIFE! Let’s do this!